Winter memories in Ukraine

Pictures were taken during my 1st and 2nd year of medical school. After 3rd-year snow became less fun so not much pictures were taken haha. Now I really miss the pretty snow :( not missing the freezing cold weather though! 

Where can I find a Muslim female O&G specialist in Manjung?

Today a friend of mine came to the clinic, wanted a second opinion regarding her pregnancy. She is currently at 38weeks pregnancy. I did a scan for her when she was 36weeks, the baby had a transverse lie so I immediately referred her to the hospital. Apparently, she asked for an AOR discharge despite the counseling given for her unstable lie. She was keen to deliver in a private hospital. 

Well, today she came to me saying that 2 days back, she had a follow up in a private hospital. She was told that her baby weighing 2.8kg and her AFI (amniotic fluid index) is high - 21. She was told to come back for a repeat scan on the 31st of Jan. The thing is, she said every appointment will cost her ~RM270! Quite a lot for a chit chat and scan she claimed. Previously at another private hospital, they charged her around RM100+/appointment, never reaching RM200. So she asked me very nicely whether I could her help to scan and to double check her AFI.

Turned out that her AFI was normal, only 14.8. I scanned twice for confirmation and the result was about the same. Even during her 36weeks scan, her AFI was about that range, far from number 20. I counseled her and gave some suggestions since she looked worried and frustrated. Of course, the AFI level may increase and decrease throughout the pregnancy but for now, the AFI is normal. Even the presentation was cephalic and she had no labor symptom so she shouldn't worry much. 

She asked me whether she should still go and repeat her scan in the private hospital (and pay RM270)? I answered her with honesty but let just keep it as a secret ;) 

She delivered her 4 children previously by a female Muslim doctor in a private hospital. For her 5th pregnancy, she is very keen to do the same. Unfortunately, in Manjung, most of the O&G specialists are male and non-Muslim. The nearest you can go is Ipoh or Taiping. 

To conclude all that, we really need a female Muslim 0&G specialist in Manjung! You can really make money here you know!

read-learn-write

If you really like to write, you need to start by reading. By reading, you learn. By learning, you can write good stuff. Once you know how to write good stuff, you feel happy and satisfied!

The dream to further study in Public health

I am turning 34 years old this year, and just last week, I took the entrance exam and interview for Public Health master programme. 2months prior to the exam, I pushed myself to study hard. But well, it was hard. It was hard for me to concentrate with husband was not around most of the time, what with the 2 heroes running and seeking for my attention, and when I had finally had my own time, I will be occupied with the phone! The phone is the strongest enemy. Of course, if I want to make an excuse, the study was slightly difficult and many new things to learn and to memorize. Once I did not understand something, my mind went blank and my hand will move to the phone. The rest is history. Every time I realized 'oh, what am I doing?', I went back to my study but the time still wasted.

To prevent myself from doing the same mistakes over and over again, I write! I read,  I understand, and I write. I realize when I write, I can memorize better, my mind can focus better, no time is wasted. The time is so precious because, at any time, the kids could come and jump on you, or they simply ask to make milk for them, or they poo. But thanks to them, my life is alive, whatever I am doing now is because of them. I want to further study so I could become a specialist, in a hope that I can provide a better life for them. Thank God people in Public Health currently encourage the doctors who want to be part of them, to prioritize family too. Family first, they said.

This reminds me why I want to further my study. Can't remember where I read/heard this saying that all Muslims are encouraged to study until the highest level you can go. For me, since I've been working in Klinik Kesihatan for a long long time, if FMS is a no-no, Public Health is the only another option. The good thing about Public Health is that everyone must learn from the beginning. I am not too far behind the others. We are also obliged to be in the Mentor-mentee programme for at least 6months for learning more deeply on Public Health. New health issues come out every day so you learn from there too.

How were my exam and interview? Not bad I guess, I did my best but obviously still lacking here and there. My nerves during the interview were also quite a disaster. But I guess it's all up to my rezeki now. Tawakkal to Allah and redha with whatever result I get. Allah is always the best planner. So you pray, pray that He always guide you to stay on the right path in life, pray that whatever comes along in your life has a good reason, pray that whichever road you choose to go, it is the best road that leads you to His blessing. InsyaAllah...

Cukup

Macammana nak rasa cukup

Kalau hati asyik teringin

Di kanan mengukir pelangi

Di kiri terbangnya tinggi

Lari-lari lelahnya jasad

Tak terkejar nafas di dada

Tergapai-gapai memetik bintang

Emas di tangan tergelincir

Janji yang Satu janji yang pasti

Hati yang kosong ruangnya sempit

Mahu apa tak dapat apa

Apa yang ada Dia beri semua

Write!

ok in 2018 I posted only 2 posts in this blog lol! I spent much of my time looking at phones or handling the kids, made me forget that I like to write in my past time.

I wrote a novel during secondary school, most students in my class would take turns to read the novel and told me they enjoyed reading it. I myself enjoyed writing it. somehow the novel didn't make it when one of my friends sent it to a publisher, not sure what happened but i didn't get back my novel, wonder where is the novel now hmm..  The thing is, definitely, i can write a story. even in our yearbook under my picture, it was written:- 'future novelist'!

where is the dream to become a novelist gone i wonder? of course, i have a stable career now, a family and other responsibilities, but i still remember there was a wish in my heart that someday i would write a story and get it published. i wish that someday i can buy a book with my name on the front cover as the writer. Possibly possible?